Chapter 137
Alexander's POV
The air in the car had been unbearable.
e, and the silence had clawed atevery second of the drive back into town. Christiana sat beside me, quiet,
her eyes occasionally moving towardlike she wanted to say something. Every tshe did, | tightened my
grip on the steering wheel, forcing myself not to speak, not to turn and tell her it was okay, that | understood.
Because | didn't
Not yet
Her driver and two bodyguards had long left with her car, after she had signaled them to leave Daniel frigging
Brooks apartment.
When we finally pulled up outside her suite, | cut the engine and sat there for a beat, staring straight ahead. My
chest felt tight, like it might explode from the effort of holding back everything | wanted to say.
“Alex..” she started softly, her voice hesitant, but | raised a hand, cutting her od
“No,” | said, my tone sharper than | intended. Her face fell, and guilt stabbed at me, sharp and unrelenting.
She nodded, biting her lip as she opened the door and climbed out. | watched her walk toward the door, her
steps s
slower than usual, her shoulders slumped as if the weight of the world pressed down on her.
| wanted to follow her. God, | wanted to pull her into my arms, kiss her, and tell her | wasn’t really angry, that |
just didn’t know how to deal with what I'd seen. But | stayed in my seat, gripping the steering wheel like it was
the only thing keepinggrounded.
The moment she disappeared inside, 1 let out a breath | didn’t realize I'd been holding. | leaned back against the
headrest, closing my eyes.
“She deserves this.” | muttered to myself, though the words felt hollow.
| opened my eyes and stared at the dashboard. You can’t forgive her too quickly, Alex. She has to learn. The
thought made my stomach churn, but | knew it was true. If | let this go, if | just brushed it under the rug like it
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And it wasn't
Not for me. Not for us,
| pulled out my phone
and
sent a quick text to my men-
__ “Stay close. Don't let her notice.”
| trusted them to keep an eye on her. | couldn't leave her completely alone with her bodyguards, not with Daniel
lurking around, probably still scheming to worm his way back into her life. But | needed space-space to cool
down to figure out how to handle this without losing my mind.
Starting the car again, | drove aimlessly for a while, the city blurring pastin the glaring noon sun. My
thoughts churned, a chaotic mess of anger, jealousy, and something | couldn't quite name.
| wasn’t just angry at her. | was angry at myself. For not stopping her sooner. For not trusting her enough to
handle this better. For feeling st goddamned weak every t| looked at her.
“You're not weak” | told myself, gripping the wheel tighter. “You're just human.
But being human wasn’t good enough right now. | had to be more than that for her, for us
Eventually, | pulled over at a park | barely recognized, parking under the shade of a massive oak tree. Killing the
engine, | leaned forward, resting my head against the steering wheel
“She deserves it,” | whispered again,
but the
this time, my
y voice cracked.
| closed my eyes, picturing her face. The way her eyes had brimmed with tears as she beggedto listen. The
way her voice had trembled when she said she loved me.
“You love her too a voice in my head whispered, and | clenched my fists, fighting the urge to punch the
dashboard.
Of course, | loved her. That was the problem.
If | forgave her too quickly, if | let her see how much power she had over me, she’d think | was weak. And |
couldn't let that happen. Not after what I'd seen today
But faking this anger, pretending to
be colder than | felt it was killing fe.
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Chapter 137
My phone buzzed, breaking through my thoughts. It was a message from one of my men:
“She's still at her hotel suite. No sign of Daniel”
| sighed, running a hand through my hair. At least she was safe. For now.
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at the park. A group of kids played in
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| pulled out my phone again, staring at her nin my contacts. My thumb hovered over the call button, but |
didn’t press it.
Instead, | whispered to the empty car, “You'll learn, Christiana. I'll make sure you do,”
And yet, as | sat there, the ache in my chest only grew, reminding
I needed her more than she’d ever know.